Unplugged
Posted by Nirav | Filed under Meta, iPhone
I’m going to just go crazy here and talk about my “feelings”, whatever the hell those might be. This post is technology-related, but takes a different tone than the archives.
When I was in high school, I dated a girl for eight months, and was good friends with her for several months before that. At the point that we became good enough friends for her to be calling me fairly often, I assigned her a specific ringtone on my cellphone. I think it was called “Chimes”. I can still remember this ringtone.
In the beginning, it was wonderful. When I heard the echoing tune, my mood would brighten and I would be in heaven. We’d talk for hours and think that we had something unique, something special, as high schoolers are prone to doing. No matter how asleep I was, that particular series of tones would dive through my dreams and float me gently to consciousness to answer my phone and hear her sweet, sweet voice.
The relationship began to sour, and heaven began to slowly, gruesomely, morph into hell. I would break out into a sweat. My heart would start pounding with sickening anxiety. By the end of it, I couldn’t even think about her ringtone without feeling slightly, uncomfortably dizzy.
Today I learned better; I found out how I could have not put myself through that at all.
This afternoon, I had a conversation on the phone that left me more anxious than normal, setting me on edge and slipping me into a kind of vaguely preoccupied state; in short, I was regressing to high school. I tweeted about it, thinking that it would make me feel better to get it out, but instead it just compounded my anxiety as I awaited any response from certain people.
And then I realized: I could just turn it off.
So I did.
My phone remained off for the next few hours, and thus, I remained unplugged this evening. I laughed, talked, ate, drove, and shared in good company.
Disconnecting myself from the constant stream of information didn’t just stop the firehose of bits, it also yanked from the roots the related anticipation of the torrent; something new and priceless to me.
Now, do people wiser than myself do this on a regular basis? It seems a terribly important skill, one that isn’t mentioned on the web design blogs, the coding forums, or the front page of digg. You don’t learn this in the pages of an O’Reilly book or Designing with Web Standards, 2nd Edition.
And yet it is vital for surviving and navigating this network of ours. As humans, we adapt easily. If a ringtone typically heralds an emotion-soaked conversation, the feelings pregame for the party as soon as they hear it. When a particularly personal missive is sent out into the world, the nerves and heart prepare for the equally personal messages expected in response.
But we’re also logical, so when you turn it all off… blissfully, deliciously, it all goes away.
Unfortunately, no one can hide forever. So I’m back on the grid, so to speak, writing this post in the hopes that it will help me remember when to simply step back and hold down the power button.